Sleep or something like it…
Posted by admin on May 31st, 2009By some miracle, I went to sleep last night before 5am and woke up at precisely noon today. I look at this as progress. Skordo looks at this as necessary. If anything, I need to adjust this sleep schedule for him. The things we do for animals.
For years, I have been plagued by nightmares and night terrors. I have been known to scream bloody murder while I am sound asleep. Many neighbors have complained of this before. For this, I apologize. In addition to the standard of talking in my sleep and occasional wandering (yes, I walk around), my nightmares are incredibly horrid, vivid, and frequent. I will generally have one every night and often wake up sitting straight up, gasping to catch an extra breath. Many times, I will not remember these visions. On occasion I will, and they are just strange. Absolutely strange.
I have been meaning to consult someone to locate the main cause of my nightmares. I have had these nightmares for the majority of my life, but they have become progressively worse over the past two years. My doctor initially thought that I was suffering from alcohol withdrawals. Yes, at the time (a year ago), this made sense. It has now been over a year and a half and well, they’re still there.
In an effort of honesty, these nightmares do not bother me that much. I tend to wake up from them, remind myself that nothing is real, and continue on with my day. Truth be told, there is nothing realistic about being stranded off a barge with towering metal bridges crashing around me. Enlighten me. Please.
I’m sure there is some reasonable validity surrounding my nightmares. I’m sure some red flags are raised around me for this, but truly, I am not bothered. It’s rather bizarre. I almost find a strange sense of belonging in them. Yes, I take sleeping pills on a moderately consistent basis. I have been a slave to them off and on for a few years. The nightmares have been around since long before I discovered sleep in a bottle. They have just leveled at this point. I really cannot pinpoint it at all. I am just a bit baffled.























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