A few things, in no particular order, just my way of getting them off my chest.

Addictive Personalities

I have one. Be it food, sex, alcohol. Perhaps it's my Celtic roots. BEG is away right now (I'll explain in a moment) so I have slipped back a little and I'm not proud. The opportunity to eat crap (Pizza), surf sites that are not what I really should be surfing and drink too much. I know that alcohol is dangerous to me if I don't keep an eye on my consumption. But I like a drink. I love wine, I love the taste of decent beer and yes even spirits - gin and tonic, martini's, decent single malts. the one thing that keeps me in check is that I know excessive consumption affects my ability to, ahem, 'perform'. And with BEG away I don't need to worry about this, which leads me onto...

PRON. I have kept away for quite a while now (particularly as things have been a lot better in the intimacy front recently with BEC). But now she's away, well I slipped down the slippery slope. Looking at beautiful, pert, firm ladies... I know it's not good for me, yet I just wanted to, to lust after hot females. And even though I felt bad about it, I still did. Perhaps this was something to do with...

The fact that BEG lost her rag and was verbally abusive. OK I may be being overly sensitive here but... She was lost in her car, she'd phoned me to ask directions, I'd told her, I had to be getting off for a work appointment, she called again, in hysterics, I told her I HAD to go, she told me where to go, I was upset and angry and then resented the fact that I called her back to try and smooth things over, when part of me felt that the more assertive response would have been to NOT call back, NOT be the one to make the first move, NOT do anything. Perhaps her stressfulness may have been due to...

The fact that her mother fell and fractured her hip and was taken to hospital. So last weekend's plan's for fun were totally scuppered. BEG does not like her mother, based on the fact that her mother and father were abusive. But she feels a responsibility to look after the old lady. The timing of her mother's fall couldn't be better worse because we are due to go away on holiday next a week Saturday. So the old bitch is managing to make even this a difficult decision for BEG.

Ho Hum.